We Live in Public

Recently I've been thinking a lot about this movie I saw at the t/f festival. This is partially why I have been not blogging/facebooking. I'll blog about it soon enough though if I'm supposed to.

MY BRAIN, MY BAD

So I got into a conversation about how I learn. My friend asked me why I haven't read the Bhagavad Gita and I said it's because I don't learn through direct transmission. I'd probably in all reality read it if I was asked to in a dream. Let me explain.





Here is an example of a normal learning experience for me. Yesterday morning I had a dream in which I was teaching Yoga Nidra. I was communicating something very abstract and real. Its farfetched clarity is key to my flavor of intelligence and nothing I could possibly read about and register through 'direct transmission' in my waking life. As I was meditating yesterday morning I recalled what I could of the dream, namely the sensation, and I asked that if that teaching needed to move through me, that I could have the courage to allow it. It so happened that I taught last night. I have to say some of the words I used surprised me and I said some things in certain ways that I wouldn't have expected. Afterwards I spoke with my friend who received the practice and she shared her experience in the form of, "When I heard these words from you, this happened." From this roundabout method I was able to learn a 'truth' about the practice of Yoga Nidra. I learned a specific teaching at a specific time that was exactly right for me. At the same time I embodied the teaching. To take the energy of even finding a book with this particular teaching (which I'm not sure I could have learned from a book anyway), I would have to have really good luck and expend a lot of energy at the same time, probably taking in a lot of unnecessary information along the way. Because I wasn't taking in a lot of unnecessary information, I was able to receive the teaching with clarity. It doesn't do any good for me to tell you what the teaching is because you will get it in the way you need to simply by interacting with the flavor of you that is me.